It was a very slow roll attempting to fall asleep last night.

I was tired and sore and had chest pains so I became frantic and decided at 2am that I had an aneurysm just like my father.

After roaming the halls and having a large glass of water to drown the fear I reassessed the state of my health and tried to be calm and realistic.

My legs are tight and tired because I have not missed a day of hiking or beach walking since March 21st, 2020 and have a 20 week spin streak going.

My upper body pains might be due to doing a daily arms class.

When all else fails, rationalize.

During my lengthy nighttime walkabout I thought about Jennifer Lopez and Ben Affleck because every news and entertainment show is salivating over Bennifer.

There is a larger question as to why Jennifer always appears to need a man by her side.

After analyzing my condition I had nothing better to think about so I wondered why a beautiful, successful woman who appears to have it all always needs/wants to be otherwise engaged.

Her recent break up with Alex Rodriguez after four years together is still fresh and she is already taking a trip to Montana with Affleck renewing their whatever after 17 years apart, a combined 5 kids, and collectively 8 serious relationships.

Why are women in general afraid of being alone?

I don’t get it especially when children are involved and they appear to drag them through all the relationship crap.

With JLo it is a first world problem so I shall step back and admit that I   truly do not give a damn…it’s the middle of the night, avoiding thoughts of demise are my flights of fancy.

Right now I think it is more important to have a relationship with Moderna, Pfizer or Johnson & Johnson.

Anyway, who am I to judge.

I have been with the same man for 41 years ( gulp!)…soon to celebrate 37 years of wedded bliss.

But…it appears to be the right man…no forced compromise needed.

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